| | I wasn't going to write an entry, it felt pointless after the stupid computer froze. But, who can resist putting thoughts down into writing... I still remember what I wrote before, but looking back, it was such a depressing and pointless entry, with no sense of direction as to subject... My grandma's here, outside in the living room... it feels so surreal that she's here. I feel that if I hug her, my arms will slip through and she'll disappear before my eyes. It hasn't really hit me yet, that she's here, physically, in front of my eyes...with my 5 senses responding to her. After graduating, I feel a bit lost. A bit without purpose. It feels surreal that I've graduated. I haven't gotten that "slap in the face" that we've graduated, yet during grad, I sat there in my seat. I looked around the whole room, and I realized, with a sad expression on my face and in my heart, I won't even see three quarters of these people anymore. Skye and I talked about this already, and it's just depressing. I won't see Elaine again...we've never hung out anyways (DUDE, SHE JUST CAME ONLINE!), I won't really miss these next people, the GINAS, but still, just seeing them everyday in the hallways and in the class has become such a daily routine... my peeps that I don't always hang out with all the time... Vanessa, Sarah, SHARON!!!!!, INGRIDD!!!!!!!!, etc. The BT guys too... even though I know in my heart, we'll probably do some BT renunion again during university, but still... our distances between us used to be of walking distance...now it's an hour and half drive distance.. Well, except for Miguel since he's going to Guelph... but STILL! And, not seeing Skye everday! Oh it brings a pain in my heart that we can't walk together after school anymore. I'm definitely not gonna miss the walk uphill to Cummer, it's a pain in the fucking ass to wait for the Cummer bus, with my fucking heavy shit accounting TEXTBOOK! AH! Yet, at the same time, I can't wait for the future. I wish there was a time machine for me to fast forward into the future to see ourselves in university, possible boyfriends? (I wanna see Tiffany's and Vivien's and Christine's, and Skye's, etc) our jobs, and then come back to the present. Obviously, we can't do that, and even if there was a time machine, it'll defeat the whole purpose of life's mysteries. I'm gonna miss VIVIEN SO MUCH! I wanna hang out with her more now, I've always had, but now it feels like our days together are numbered. I need to readjust myself. I haven't gone seriously job searching either because I'm still dizzy, the stuff in my left ear's not balanced, and it's taking a fucking long time to heal. I've been reading Twilight again, just for the heck of it. Reading Twilight really brings out my girliness, LOL, and it really brings out my youth. I'm still 17, but my days till I'm an adult are numbered and a few months away. Reading Twilight just reminds me of the days when I was in first semester, spazzing with Marie, Nikki, Skye, and Adeline about Edward Cullen aka. Robert Pattinson (ahakgjhaslasjas!  ) Just talking about a certain scene in the book, spoiling some scenes for Skye, GUSHING over the trailer, and simply non stop Twilight. Those were the days... I hope I'll be doing that with my (asian) peeps in Waterloo sometime near my birthday. I'm gonna make Christine Lee and Tiffany read it, so that they'll gush with me... I'LL FORCE TIFFANY lol. I watched Transformers 2 already... ONE WORD: ASTONISHING! AH, I NEED TO WATCH IT AGAIN! I think I'm torturing myself though, because I can't stop watching the New Moon trailer. I shouldn't be watching it but I'm already on New Moon, and just imagining Robert Pattinson saying those lines in the book makes me SO SMILEY! Anyways, this was a much happier entry compared to the one that I was going to publish. PICTURES:             
-cath |
